• 15th December 2013

    I’m worried ill never have the chance to experience that moment of pure joy when you see your bride for the first time on your wedding day.


    I can’t imagine anything can compare.

    And it’s not like that’s the only thing I’m worried about when it comes to marrying a man instead of a woman but it’s become this symbol to me.

    I just so badly want to get rid of the part of me that likes men. It honestly does sicken me. I think it does at least. I have this image of consuming some bleach like substance and feeling it drip down through me, acidic and painful until it just evaporates and I’m left with a normal me. Like a cleanse.

  • 1st October 2012

    I guess I’m just feeling lonely as of late. I didn’t really realize what that feeling was until I visited my friend’s house this weekend for a party of his. I had a really great time. The people there were the type of people I want in my ideal group of friends, and I don’t really have that here. I have individual friends that are great, but being a part of a friend group is a different experience.

    I think I just want to be a part of something with other people. I thought I was going to be in something with two other people who I started talking to more frequently, but I’m starting to feel like a third wheel. it’s to be expected really, since they were already best friends before I came in, but it’s still disappointing. I’m still trying to talk with both of them but I keep getting the impression that they’re only replying out of politeness and not because they want to talk to me. I’m not sure how I really feel about that to be honest. Some mixture of disappointment and resignation mainly.

  • 25th September 2012

    I’m really not having a good night. I’ve had worse, but I just feel so drained. I feel like it became harder to tolerate things, and I didn’t want to listen to people’s problems.

    I’m assuming this is what frustration feels like.

    Tags: #don't mind me i need to learn to express emotion 
  • 9th September 2012

    I feel like I must be romanticizing so many things about what I aim to be like.

    Perhaps because I don’t want to accept that this is all there is to life, to the way I feel towards people.

    Tags: #wow so deep sam #props for you #go to bed already 
  • 26th August 2012

    "Some people feel like they don’t deserve love. They walk away quietly into empty spaces, trying to close the gaps of the past."

    Into the Wild, Jon Krakauer (via seabois)

    (via breenwolfhasmoved-deactivated20)

    Notes: 3667
  • 12th August 2012

    Notes: 895
  • 2nd August 2012

    It’s quite amazing how you can convince people you’re okay in just seconds.

  • 29th July 2012

    I can honestly say I wish I had never started watching Teen Wolf.

    Seeing what Jackson Whittemore is going through is starting to unravel years of emotional repression, and now I don’t know how to handle it. Screw not knowing what to feel, I’m still unsure on how to feel: how to react to having an emotion create a physical sense of pain. How are you supposed to deal with that?

    I don’t see how people can deny that emotions make you weak. If this is really what emotions feel like, then I’ve never felt weaker. It’s a pathetic feeling and an unwelcome response.

    Tags: #and for christ's sake it's a mtv show #i should be ashamed 
  • 12th July 2012
    Notes: 67
  • 12th July 2012

    I wish this wasn’t so accurate.

    (Source: fassyy, via elllmist-deactivated20121210)

    Notes: 5067
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