• 12th June 2012

    Why can’t I just be okay with who I am. I don’t understand why I’m not.
    Yet again, there’s every reason not to be.

    This was dumb.

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  • 31st May 2012

    dolleax:

I would do this if my body was like a piece of paper.  Never good enough.

    dolleax:

    I would do this if my body was like a piece of paper.
    Never good enough.

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  • 23rd May 2012

    Whenever I make a post that has something to do with being ugly or insecure about my appearance, I get all these asks (anon and not) telling me I’m not and that I’m pretty or whatever. It’s so frustrating because I really don’t like people sending me pity messages. But then again, I guess some part of me wants the pity if I’m putting it online for all to see.

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  • 21st May 2012

    Fair warning, this is dumb

    Somehow over the years, Nutella has become a symbol for me. I can’t even think of eating it without considering how in appealing I look and how hopeless my worries are. So anytime I eat it, you’ll know I’m in a fairly heavy state of self-deprecative thoughts and severely lacking self-esteem. I managed to eat half a jar this weekend, simply because I lost the will to care. I’m currently finding it very hard to keep my sense of hope and self-esteem to even a level of what might be considered below average.

    I don’t really have anything to say about that, I’m just forcing myself to post about it.

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  • 27th April 2012

    Money
Love
Fame
Happiness
Health

    1. Money
    2. Love
    3. Fame
    4. Happiness
    5. Health

    (Source: thefameisallthereis, via tinocka)

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  • 24th April 2012

    I’d like to say that this hasn’t happened to me before, but I feel this all the time. Sometimes I have a lot of trouble coming up with reasons why people should like me, so it makes little to no logical sense why they would actually want too be my friend. Also people have just told me they did not like me after a lengthy period of being my friend, and that they didn’t like me for a significant portion of that time. So I guess on some psychological level the fear can be justified, to some extent.

    I’d like to say that this hasn’t happened to me before, but I feel this all the time. Sometimes I have a lot of trouble coming up with reasons why people should like me, so it makes little to no logical sense why they would actually want too be my friend. Also people have just told me they did not like me after a lengthy period of being my friend, and that they didn’t like me for a significant portion of that time. So I guess on some psychological level the fear can be justified, to some extent.

    (via promisedyouastar)

  • 7th April 2012

    I think that I’d be considered both “Intelligent” and “Emotionally Stable”. I waffled on whether or not to consider myself Emotionally Stable, simply because I’m not sure how stable I can be considered if I’m not as in tune with my emotions as most are. I don’t freak out or let my emotions get the better of me, at least not in front of other people. As for intelligence, I stay inside of my head enough that I can be considered intelligent. But I’m by no means smart.

    I think that I’d be considered both “Intelligent” and “Emotionally Stable”. I waffled on whether or not to consider myself Emotionally Stable, simply because I’m not sure how stable I can be considered if I’m not as in tune with my emotions as most are. I don’t freak out or let my emotions get the better of me, at least not in front of other people. As for intelligence, I stay inside of my head enough that I can be considered intelligent. But I’m by no means smart.

    (Source: endangeredgenus, via thesubtlegatsby)

  • 27th March 2012

    One thing I need to work on is my tendency to avoid conflict.

    Except that’s not how I’d phrase it. I need to work on being less passive, about not voicing my concerns out of some illogical anxiety.

    I just had the chance to talk to someone about something that’s been bugging me for quite a long time, but I ignored the opportunity. I really wanted to as well, but I get so paranoid that me plaguing them with questions will just make them go away and stop talking to me in the first place. So I take what I can get.

    Which isn’t a good frame of mind. But for now it’s all I’ve got.

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  • 27th March 2012

    So this is mainly a way to force myself to share my thoughts and feelings more often because that’s something I have a lot of trouble doing. I need an outlet for that stuff instead of bottling it all up. I’ll post stuff here I’m not comfortable posting on my main blog here.

    Because I’m not good with sharing emotions.

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